06 December, 2005

Losing friends

I've become aware just recently how I seem to have lost the art of making friends. I used to do it so effortlessly and easily that I didn't even think about it and now....?I don't think its that my social skills have got worse or anything like that I think instead its an indicator of age. Most of the people that I would make friends with have established friendship groups like myself and most like myself don't really have the energy to socialise much during the week and weekends tend to get taken up with established friends and family so its all a bit of a vicious circle really.

I've also become aware of friends that I have lost through my own carelessness. Friends who often said we must get together or when can we meet and I kept putting them off or not making the effort only to find that when I eventually did they had moved and I can't find them now.

Or friends who did some slight to me and I treated them badly out of my hurt and rejected them or ignored them until they could do without me and again I can't find them now either.

It all feels a bit sad and it only seems like yesterday when I was almost complaining that I didn't really have enough time for the friends I had...now suddenly I have lots of time and only few friends.

Must try harder next year and not take people for granted, not be so fussy as to who can be my friend and look for ways to increase my friendship group and of course nuture and care for the dear friends that I do still have for they do truly put up with a lot from me.

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