Tuesday

As soon as I finished yesteday's blog I automatically went and checked my phone and there was a little message from him just saying 'hi'. Despite all my saying that he meant nothing and I was keen to move on to the next I leapt around the room deliriously happy. He couldn't stay away!!

We chatted through texts and sort of reaffirmed our friendship and I laid me down to go to sleep a happy woman.....but do you think I could sleep? No not a bit of it. Images of Saturday, the last two days wondering and tonights conversation all whirled around in my head. 12.30, 1.30 etc etc until 4.00 and then I just gave up and didn't even try to sleep.

Today no texts and I was beginning to feel that last night was a mistake on his part, a horny plea for me to alleviate him and started to feel very stroppy when he sweetly texted what a rotten day he was having with meeting after meeting. Later about 5 I asked that if he wanted to finish just to let me know and that all I wanted was honesty, fun and lots of sex. He said ' I can give you all of those baby'....and so we have a deal and will hopefully have some fun.

But its dangerous fun isn't it with committments on both sides and potential for various people to get hurt including myself and innocent poeple as well.

I can feel myself falling big time for this man and am desperately trying not to get involved. Why oh why can't I just have sex without the bloody committment and love stuff....I think its the moral part of me justifying the fun I can have with this gorgeous, handsome, erotic and clever man.