No message, no phone call!! Restless night with little sleep again. Finally staying away from about 7ish hoping that by 9 he'll text from inside his duvet again like he has so often before....but it was not to be. Finally about 10.20 I sent a text saying, 'you've been v quiet these last few days hope all is okay' Now several hours later nothing, zilch, nought. I've taken all his contact details off my phone so I am not tempted to phone or text him again. My affirmation is when I don't text or phone I feel stronger and in more control. Got to keep it going. If he doesn't want to contact me its no point in nagging, moaning or anything else and I must have some pride and will not ask or beg.
Sad that its over and not really sure why. Thats the annoying thing is the uncertaintity. If he just said bye Gill I would be okayish but its the not knowing for definete which keeps you looking at your phone in vain and hoping that it will tingle any moment and he'll give some excuse or reason for not getting in touch....but I am fooling myself.
Jayne is in similar boat with being anxious about Bondy so we are both agonising over men and also wondering when we will finally grow up.
I just want someone to fall in love with me and rescue me and look after me....is that too much to ask?
Sad old me tonight.
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