Agreement working

The week went well and I did continue to feel comfortable and at ease with the situation. On Wednesday morning I sent a text saying 'I've got a jerry springer type of meeting today and the thought of you ripping my tights might keep me going. How about a meet up?' He replied instanteously by saying 'can't do tonght babe .got the kids' which was fair enough.

Later that same evening he started texting me the flirty dirty texts and we later progressed onto messenger. During the conversation he was asking if I thought about him and when I said I did and that he was attractive and sexy to me he sent back a blushing smiley and said he didn't think I thought about him. Now this surprises me as he knows I text him and stuff so doens't he realise that of course I think about him? Must not get attached.

Rest of the week pretty quiet but I have been busy myself and like I said I am comfortable with things. It doesn't feel like he is running away at the moment and anyway I have come to rather late conclusion that he is with me because he wants to be and when he doens't then it will stop which is fair enough.

We went to Marne Inn last night and saw a heavy metal group there. The place is nothing like the railway and there was noone there worth making an effort for but on the other hand we were tucked away on a table round the corner not really talking to anyone except the lead singer in the band with who Yasmin did her embarrassingly awful aggressive flirting.

She got right on my nerves last night moaning about the place...yeah okay none of us liked it but I needed to be away from the Railway and it would have been nice to have had some solidarity and support rather than thinly veiled moans and suggestions that S is controlling me!! When she said she was thinking of going home to bed I just said 'goodnight' to her. I also wanted to tell her that she was there because stupid Jayne felt sorry for her.

He text this morning asking me if I had pulled so thats good...nice a worried eh? Started on the dirty texts and then just dissapeared when I asked where he had gone he said he was swimming with his kids....ahhh doesn't he know that by telling me things like that I am more likely than ever to fall in love with him....must just must keep a grip on emotions and say loudly to myself...I am not in love it is just sex.