Peacocks and snowdrops

Got lots of texts this morning leading up to a want you to meet me and ...... if you see what I mean? I was going out with Angela to look at birds or flowers or just walk and so said I could not meet earlier.
Angela and I went to the Gardens of Easton Lodge near Dunmow. Its quite a sad deserted and slightly erie place really. Its almost as if everyone suddenly downed tools and just walked out of the garden a couple of years ago. You can see the plans and how the garden was being restored but now it all seems to have stopped. However the snowdrops were very pretty. We had a nice wander around but to be honest I think I was quite proccupied with MrV and suddenly didn't have that much in common with Angela at the moment which is a bit sad. We had a nice lunch though and then I came back and met with Jayne and heard all about the trials and tribulations of both her sisters and told her about my conversation with Simon yesterday.

Went home and potter about and Chris and Fiona turned up out of the blue which was lovely so sat chatting to them about their plans for holidays and stuff and suddenly a little text tinkled through asking if I can meet.

As soon as Chris and Fiona went I zoomed off for our rendevouz. He as very gentle tonight but that just suited me fine and I think I had about 3 orgasms, I must tell him to be that gentle again. The only thing was that I sort of lost interest and found it hard to keep going for his benefit, I am so selfish I know.

I also felt very self concious about my horrible greying hair, I must get it done this week.

Anyway I'm going to call on him this week and see if he keeps his bargain or end of the agreement. It kind of feels different but in a good way. Hopefully he is less worried and I can be more relaxed. The kinds of things he was saying in a genuine way sounded like he likes me in his life and doesn't really want to change that at the moment and anyway if he doesn't he is perfectly entitled to say so and end it when he wants just as I am. It is just the silence I can't stand and I do hope that doesn;t happen again.

I've not text him today deliberately but also not felt the need I feel comfortable with the situation and happy and we'll just have to see how the week pans out. I plan to ask him on Friday so he is all sated for Friday night just before he goes to the Railway and that way hopefully any women he meets on Friday will be unrequired ...well thats my plan anyway.