The training went pretty well overall. There is one person there who has made it very clear that she doesn't like being there and resents it quite strongly but I am working on making her my new best friend and she seemed to respond well to that. The other has become more dissaffected as the day went on which is a shame and we'll have to work on her whereas most of the others are pretty much thinking our way already so thats good.

As for Mr V...still feeling fed up about it all. It just feels so finished and final now whereas in the past there has been a lingering feeling. I guess its because I've made the decision to end it now as this cannot continue in this way of him only texting me when he wants sex and I have little say etc apart from yes or no I suppose.

Have pm'ed Fizzer and said I'd like to come down to Bristol next week. That always is good and they are such lovely fluffy people and always makes me feel emotionally better if not physically...mustn't go mad this time and stay well for the next week. I've been so healthy this winter and I don't want to spoil that.

Got lots of good things happening. Mum and Dad phoned and they have booked a week in the Isle of Wight in June and want me to take them which is fine as its not even too far to drive so thats all good.

Got a good job, health, lovely sons, disposable income or overdraft, pets, niceish house, car and have just had a fantastic affair with gorgeous man....there is a big smile on my face cos I know I am attractive and sexy to men...ahhh there is a little grey cat wnats to sit on my lap ahhhhh