Finally over Craig

Strange but I have not heard a word from Craig since I sent that last message which speaks volumes really.

Work has been pretty busy and I've managed to get to the gym three times this week so feeling pretty good about that.

Went to Railway last night and had a good chat with Linda and Jayne but there was no band so it was a very different atmosphere there and the crowd thinned out pretty early. Mark let us down with regards to taxi and we had to walk along the road to find a cab.

Mr V text this morning saying he could do with a good fuck and after a bit of bantering we met at the nursery. Had the very usual lovely time. Lots of good kissing which so turns me on...even now if I think about it I get all turned on less than an hour from seeing him as well.

Kissing is so nice. It starts with little feather kisses and just gets deeper and more penetritive with lots of nice accompanying noises and little words said in between more deep kisses. I love the way he makes his tongue flick inside my mouth while his fingers are doing the same down below...god he turns me on so. I could lay and be kissed by him all day long rather than the snatched moments we get. I played with him and he got so aroused especially when I licked my hands and fingers. He came pretty quickly today and we're supposed to be meeting again tomorrow but we'll see fingers crossed.

I know that our meeting today was sandwiched in between work and meeting mates to watch football and I do let him know that I know this which kind of makes me feel that we're not playing games here.

I asked him what his mates called him and he first of all started to get all suspicious about who I have been talking to etc but I was not to be put off and eventually he said Ollie. He did have the grace to look embarrassed and even said he couldn't remember which false name he had given me!! ...and that everyone gives a false name when they meet someone else. I called him a shit and he agreed but then we laughed.

Why does his bad behaviour to me feel okay? It shouldn't really should it? He is a liar, a cheat, is sexist and generally a bad man but I love him for all those things because he makes me laugh and more importantly he makes me feel sooo good when I am with him. I think we have a fairly honest relationship ...I just have to keep hold of my feelings and not get too dependent or really fall in love with him.

Oh well its been a fun 4 months and I don't regret it.