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Sunday I got a text saying it was going to be a long day and that there was already a manager in hospital so that put paid to any plans I might have had.

I found myself wasting most of the weekend and had fallen into old old habits of waiting around and being available for what? A measly half an hour. I have therefore resolved not to do so again and will make plans for next weekend. In fact I have arranged to meet Angela on Sunday for bird watching and on Monday I've been invited to London to meet the Urban lot to celebrate birthdays and I am sort of considering it....if I can find my way to pub

I've also resolved not to text him everyday and wait on his texts although the former has so far been relatively easy, I tell myself its no point texting as its rare he replies unless its about sex and even then he doesn't always reply and I might as well wait till he is available which will be around the weekend and the latter is harder as I find I am wishing him to text me and keep checking the phone.

I really don't want to get too hung up over him and actually I know I can do this and if necessary cut him out of my life altogether although there is actually no need to do this at present. After all if I did cut him out I'd still be alone and miserable and sexually frustrated. No I am telling myself I am just getting a realistic handle on this and there is a little part of me hoping he'll miss my texts and text me to find out why I've not text him...but there is another part of my head that says out of sight out of mind and maybe he'll just forget you altogether or feel relieved you are not bothering him...oh well all we can do is to see...so definetely no texts today.

Work has been busy, busy and in fact here now at half eight I am waiting for a call from an IC to let me know how she got on tonight visiting a client. Work is good though.