Sent a text this morning wishing him a happy easter...no reply. Spent the rest of the day almost going to text and just stopping myself and then about 4.20 he send a text saying 'remember when you are out tonight you don't know me' I send a jokey text back asking who he is and if it someone gorgeous cos I just might have to say hello...no smile nothing just another text saying its important to him. So I reply that I find it hurtful that the only text he sends is one that says remember I don't know him...to which he replys no it isnt. He doesn't answer my one which said 'isn't what? hurtful or the only text you send...I don't mind if you are busy but it would be nice to hear occasionally from you. Oh don't take any notice of me I'm having a wobbly week and anyway you don't have to worry about me there tonght cos I won't be there' Nothing, zilch, zero.

Whats a girl to think? That either he doesn't realise how hurtful it is or that he think he has text more than he has? I've probably ruined it now anyway by being needy and demanding and letting him realise that I do care more for him than he does for me.

Off to the Moat House tonight. Jayne doesn't want to go and Lorraine's brother is going to be there along with all the lonely elderly people of Harlow so it looks set for a disasterous night whereas at the railway apart from the delicious Mr V, Kent and co would have been there and I enjoy talking to Kent plus my little cheeky chops stuart ... Lorraine didn't want to go to the railway though...oh well lets see what the night brings.