Looking in to the future or looking back into the past...depends on your persective

Well I didn’t get any replies to the texts I had sent and so felt a little foolish. I’ve since sent him a text that said ‘oh well I’ll take your silence as a no then. I’ll leave you to contact me if and when you can and want to’. I thought that way its up to him. I don’t want to keep hassling him if he is not interested. Just wish he would say if he is busy etc…but then maybe he is not so much busy but not interested and saying that wouldn’t do my ego much good. Just have to take it that he is not interested and leave it at that.

Got on with lots of work today. Started and completed a report that does not pull any punches but is written with the child in mind. Hope it helps the parents to concentrate their minds without sounding too sanctimonious.

Just got a couple of texts from Robo asking if I am out at the weekend which was a bit curious as I thought we had a similar conversation the other day. When I said I was still checking about if we were going out Sat or Sun and what about him he replied out all day Saturday. So now I really am confused. He was all for meeting up at JR’s on Saturday.

His texts sounded very short and to the point a bit like Mr V’s. So me being suspicious text Mr V and asked if he knew that Robo was texting me and that he wanted us all to meet up in a group. I did think about asking if he minded but left that bit out. So far……………………………………………………………….no reply lol.

One day when I look back on this childish, teenagerish behaviour I wonder if I will cringe with embarrassment. If I do I can only say to myself that it was fun and actually this is all the stuff I should have done as a teenager but never did. Its right what people say do it when you are young but then on the other hand this seems to prove you are never too old to start either. Wonder where it will all go? If you are reading this from the future you know and you know the mistakes I make ahead and the joys and miseries to follow. I wonder what you would tell me oh me from the future. Right enough navel gazing otherwise I am in danger of folding myself up like the giant telescope in Alice in wonderland.