Problems of being the other woman

Friday night we had decided that because we were going to Strawberry Fair we would only go to Wetherspoons. All turned up and I was dressed fairly casually as I thought it was just a pub night. Anyway we get chatting and who should come and stand alongside us but Mrs V and her friends which ironically we end up chatting to!! I can do without this as already my life seems so entwined with his. I'm texting Robo his best friend, bloody Tesco seems to dominate everywhere and now his Mrs seems to becoming friendly with my friends!!

We decide to go to the Railway afterall as it might be a laugh and only minutes after arriving and standing near the door who should walk in but the man himself. Looking gorgeous in some white linen type material shirt, he stands directly in front of me (I ignore him and he ignores me) and talks across us to his mates! I feel so uncomfortable and awkward and wonder why he did not reply to my text earlier asking him if he was out tonight)

The evening just descends into depression for me compounded by Mrs V and her friends arriving and later the band playing 'happy birthday to Ollie' Mrs V and Mr V are flirting with each other and to all it looks like a couple who are very attracted to each other. Questions race through my brain, like is she the real Mrs V or is she another poor sucker like me and the real Mrs V is at home somewhere? Why did he ignore my texts earlier, do I look old tonight? etc etc

At one point he stands with his back to me and I can feel his buttocks press lightly against me before he moves away and it probably is unintentional and leaves me feeling confused and depressed.

Yesterday morning I wake and send him a happy birthday text ...no reply then a text asking if he only talks to me when he wants sex? No reply...and now here I am depressed and anxious, badly wanting this arrogant bastard to text me so I can ignore him...how stupid is that? Also realising again that I should give him up and at the same time worrying that he has already given me up but deep in my mind and heart I just know the last time we had sex was sooo good for him he will not give that up yet.

Also there is her...she has not done anything to deserve this and why should I play a part in some misery that I could be causing.

I wish I had never met him whilst at the same time I am so glad and grateful for the last few months...ahh well is all part of lifes rich tapestry.