Last Friday it was just Jayne and I going out which always means we will have a laugh and fun. Got slightly drunk before we left on Pernod and went to Horn and Horseshoe where they had a kareoki to which we sort of gatecrashed every song we liked by singing along as a backing group. We thought we were brilliant and funny and soon went into lesbian mode as well. I am not so sure the rest of the pub thought we were so good and after deciding that we were too much for that pub got a taxi and went to the good ole Railway.

People were spilling out onto the pavement and the place was full up inside which was brilliant. A man in a white shirt brushed past me and caught my eye. There then followed some more eye contact followed by winking followed quickly by him coming over to say 'hello gorgeous' to me. He was very nice. 38, married with twin 4 year old boys and very happily married as well. I went to move away but he wanted to talk. His name was Johnny and he said he was overwehlmed by the pub but he didn't act overwhelmed but rather confidently. He asked me and Jayne to a party later.
However when I stumbled off to find Jayne (who had been talking with Bondy outside) I was swept into their taxi and driven off home...which was probably just as well. However Jayne did later find two pictures she had taken of me and Johnny so I do have those to keep as a rememberance of a good evening.

Saw Mr V on Thursday night and Saturday morning and our latest thing is videoing ourselves which is very smutty but good fun. Sex is still good.

Robo is texting less and less and even when he does he doesn't really say much...its almost like he is just keeping his hand in or doesn't want to be rude and end our correspondence. I'm not really worried or rather do worry how I might be if I saw him. I don't think that there would be much connection between the two of us its been so long and anyway he was always my leverage with Mr V really although I did get to like him as a person.

Went back to work on Monday. Lots of referrals and work to do and me not terribly motivated all not helped by the news that Karen has handed in her notice. The whole project feels very wobbly and I am seriously worried about my prospects and job. I will have to stop harrassing Richard to get out that loan as well.

Mr V on holiday and I was worried he might be travelling today as all airports virtually stopped due to terriorist threat. No hand luggage allowed on planes at all not even baby food. I did text him and asked him to let me know he was okay and bless him he did. They flew out yesterday which might mean he is back next Wednesday or possibly if gone for 10 days slightly longer...I'm counting the days till he is back in my arms.

Right too much task avoidance today must do some more work now.