Still no nothing from Him and so far I have been good and not text him although that has not been for want of it. I am just glad I took his number off my phone otherwise I know, just know I would have text him. I even tried yesterday to put his number back on but got in a muddle with all the 7's that I gave up in the end. It would just be awlful to send a text saying something and then not be sure if it reached him or some complete stranger.

Would be ironic though if he has also removed my number from his phone...oh well never mind.

Jayne and I went to Chelmsford today so I could look for presents for Phil and my mum and dad. It is really hard to find something for a 50th wedding aniversary which surprised me and Debenhams didn't have anything and when we eventually found Alders it had closed down!! This was an old department store and I never expected that to close down.

We had lunch at Edwards bar and although the menu sounded good the actual food when it arrived was pretty rubbish.

Jayne bought some very expensive nougat from the Continental market which really made me laugh and we had a drink at the Riverside Inn which was nice and sort of put the world to rights asking ourselves the same old questions such as will we one day find the special person in our lives ...Jayne said no!!

Drove home and just pottered about. Now feeling a bit tired, bit fed up and a bit anxious. I want to look into the future and on the other hand I want all this with Him to stop now but don't want to feel like this anymore.

Oh Yasmin is apparently having a crisis. She has slept with loads of young blokes down the pub and on Friday took one back who only stayed to shag her and then left...she now feels she has let herself down as she has never done that before!! The only difference is that generally she makes them wait a couple of days lol

Sex is good though and I will miss it if it doesn't happen again so we shouldn't comdem Yasmin because she could be me.