Phil's 21st and clearing the decks.

Phil's 21st today. Ahh my baby all grown up and big man. Hard to believe its been 21 years. He was a lovely baby, a beautiful child and calm teenager now grown into a good man who is getting on with his life. I love him lots and lots and was glad to hear him come home safe this morning.



Mr V
We had a chat on the phone this morning..it was actually quite nice chatting to him and we arranged to meet at 3 this afternoon.

In between I picked Jayne up and we drove to Coggeshall where we had a wonder around looking at the shops and stuff and then had lunch in Hatfield Heath tea shop. My stomach ached and I felt all constipated but as soon as I saw him all that flew out of the window.

His mouth was on mine as soon as he got into the car and kissing was just devine...he just takes me over and is so passionate and sexy and wonderful. He really really made me cum today. Alot of the time I pretend because even though I do enjoy it sooo much he doens't alwasy make me cum...but he did today. I think because he felt more involved with his hands, body and tongue and lips...oooh as he rubbed me and bit on my nipples that really made me cum hard.

Afterwards I spent a lot of time licking and sucking him and then I got on top and made him cum inside me even though he wanted to cum in my mouth I made him and hit him and called him names and he came nice and good.

Then we talked..or rather I told him how I knew that the woman in the pub was not his missus but was his girlfriend. At first he kept saying he didn't know what I was talking about but pretty soon when the evidence built up he couldn't deny it any longer and he looked totally shame faced and embarrassed. He laughed as well and admitted it had all come down. He said it had been a strain in the pub knowing we were both in there.

He wouldn't tell me why he wanted me if he had her, just that he doens't talk about deep stuff. He needed to think, he was going into hiding and going deep this was all too much. Knowledge is power and he didn't like me knowing all this stuff. He thought I was a nutter but funny and I made him laugh which was good but this all had to end now as it had all come down.

I tried to reassure him by saying I had known since June and really none of it made any difference anymore in fact I had laughed at his audacity and that I was not going to tell her and he certainly wasn't so what was the big deal?

He was definetely troubled and kept going to leave the car but I stopped him several times to speak to me and tell him how he felt. I said the only thing I wanted was for him to be straight and not lie so he said 'no more lies and sort of laughed which was when I called him a fucking cunt and he said I had let myself down now but in a joking way.

I've probably also made a mistake in saying that none of it matters to me when really it did. I did however challenge the fact that he doens't seem to have any morals. He said life is complicated. Also when I said that she had said they will be together forever one day he said life is full of dissapointments. lol. I also told him I was cross when she said she sometimes saw him 5 times a week! He thought she was lying but he might just have been saying that. I also told him I was tempted to ask her if she too had got text messages like I had while he was in Spain? His eyes kept widening as I said each revelation.

So is this really it now? Have my revelations frightened him off completely? He was very very bothered by it all but I am hoping that once he has got used to the idea he'll come around and be fine with it all...afterall he did say he likes me and he loves the sex. I suppose I like to think that once he has got over the shock and after a few days of no sex although there is nothing to stop him still going with her, she has no idea afterall but anyway he likes sex with me so after a few days he'll be okay again and anyway I don't think its over even if right at this moment he does. He will be back I know it I just know it.