Today life is good!

Although I think I don't always work hard when working from home when I really analyse the work I do produce it is more than I often do when sitting in the office really. Take today. I was on the PC before 8 and have been researching Restorative Justice theories and ideas from across the net. I picked up an interesting copy of a lecture note by a university professor that will do very nicely for the training. I made some phone calls, including a longish one to Peter H. Later this afternoon I telephoned a parent, Maggs, Karen and Sally. I also travelled out to meet with Russ and Christine. The only time I had off really was an hour to meet with Linda so all in all a good days work just not that taxing or hard really. My Dad would say its not proper work and I suspect that deep down I don't feel I do work hard most of the time myself...I just have flashes of brilliance which keeps people at bay.

It was good meeting Linda for a coffee. I really like her but don't want to encroach on hers and Jaynes friendship. Linda does make me laugh though and she told me her story of going to bible classes and her horrible journey home when she when through a camera and later felt like 'stabbing' John. I told her to give up the Church as its obviously causing a stress and strain on her life.

Jayne phoned late last night 11.28 to be precise when I was asleep!! She sounded very happy and giggly and put Roberto who also sounded happy and kept talking about a chair for me and collecting my luggage...not the sort of thing I needed when trying to sleep but I was glad things had turned out good for Jayne afterall.

I'd gone out earlier last night for a drink with Lorraine which was good. We just had a chat but I was aware that I had obviously been in more contact with Jayne than her and that felt a bit sad and strange really. I guess all friendships do change and I really hope Lorraine doesn't become another lost friendship...I seem to have become good at losing friends these last couple of years or so.

I sent Mr V asking if he wanted or could meet today. I kept it light and he responded by saying can't do tonight sorry! Which in itself sounds nothing but is actually a huge huge step forward. He replied! Need I say more? Once again I feel something has shifted, I have been here before I know but its just good when he treats me as a human being. I think something shifted when I laid everything out before him and the balance of power has moved albeit temporarily possibly, only time will tell...there is nothing about him that I take for granted including me still finding him breathtakingly attractive and sexy. I told him at the weekend that I can barely look at him when we first meet cos I just want him so much and nine months after first meeting its good to still feel that way...makes me feel alive and sexy....today life is good!!