Tuesday blues

Jayne came round yesterday and told me that she and Yasmin had seen him in Starbucks with barage balloon on Sunday!!! This made me throw all my good intentions not to text him out of the window and I ended up sending about 7 or 8 texts last night all of which the bastard ignored!!

Apparently there are redundancies going on at Tesco's and he will be responsible for making those decisions and telling people. The word is that he is not even telling his mates who will stay and who will go. His nickname is Sly!!

I sent a text to Robo asking if he was likely to be made redundant and he said he would phone me and apologised once again for not being in touch but said he had been down...well we'll see if he phones. I would have long since given up on him and not really been bothered but he is useful for me re Mr V..so I hang on and bother him every now and then.

Had a sleepless night last night, usual stuff whirling around my head. Telling myself he needs to go and convincing myself to carry on. I am now getting to the stage where I do think this is bothering me now and not really doing me anygood and if the times he ignores me is going to be greater than the times he speaks ...well then he may as well go. I am also now thinking it was a mistake to get involved. Whereas at the beginning it was all about having the best sex ever that is now beginning to pale and not feel quite so good any longer.

I feel a bit down and can't be bothered and hope to be honest I continue to feel like this about him and don't try to lure him back yet again because it will only start all over again.

On another note I have finally finished the moderation course or at least have submitted what I think is enough work for them! I am heartily sick of the stuff and hope to goodness she doesn't return it yet again otherwise I will go mad. Its good to get rid of it.

I have decided to look up an evening class. I need something else to think about apart from work I have too much time on my hands and in my brain and will need to replace oh wonderfully sexy Mr V with something else.

Off for a walk with Jayne tonight...its hot and sticky and humid and will be good to get some fresh air.