Car rage

I've been so cross the last few days since I heard that Chris and my Mum have decided to sell the car to Chris's Mum without even checking that Richard did not still want the car. Its so bloody rude and nasty. It just makes me want to wash my hands of the whole bloody lot of them and have nothing more to do with any of them let alone go out of my way to drive to fetch her and then spend money and leave on a holiday with her for her benefit and why? What does or has she ever done for anyone else and doesn;t this just demonstrate that one more time? The more I get involved with them the more angry and let down I get.

Then to add insult to injury Jean asks me if I could give her a lift to pick the bloody car up!!! Little knowing that she has guzzumped Richard...I was so cross yesterday that I ranted and raved at Richard who then went on about how he is not bothered, only trouble was that he went on about it so much I got cross with him for going on about it then.. However the upshot was that I felt better for releasing so of the anger and although I am still cross I'm not as cross although I am still tempted to say the holiday is off.

I might be seeing the delicious Mr V later and its a good good feeling sitting here in anticipation. I've been seeing him for just over the year now and I get just as excited at the prospect of seeing him as I did a year ago.

Its not so frequent now only being about once a fortnight but he works so far away and I have to admit the novelty factor is not there now which is probably a bigger thing for a man than a woman but its still good when we do meet. I think this last year has been my best ever year for sex in my whole life which is a bit sad really but still mustn't grumble and must take advantage while its here.

Let me describe how I feel. My sking feels very alive, all sort of tingly and even my own breath upon my skin makes me feel shivery and excited. My heartbeat is slightly raised and if I knew for certain that he was coming round it would be very fast. My breast feel tender and slightly bruised as if in anticipation of his touch and down below juices are starting to heat and moisten which makes my legs feel slightly wobbly.

Who would have thought a year ago that this would still be happening and in quite a comfortable non threatening and non demanding way as well. I wonder if he is seeing someone else as I can't imagine him being satisfied with once a fortnight but so long as I don't know I won't be bothered so long as he continues seeing me which makes me sound kind of desperate but on the other hand his lack of demands also suit me and my life style.

Anyway he might be busy today and I won't get to see him afterall but the good thing is that the texts that he has sent the last couple of days tells me that he wants me and I love feeling and knowing that he wants me even after all the times we've had together he still wants me for more.