Naughty games at the Railway.

Got another cold coming on..which is such a pain and so different from last year where I barely had one cold all winter and even now I am on my second one already.

I'm generally feeling a bit fed up and down. Mr V is messing around or rather he seems not to be replying to texts and I have not seen him alone for over two weeks now. I just know he is seeing someone else and I am once again left with the decision of do I hang around waiting for the crumbs from his table because I just know he'll get in touch sooner or later or do I just give up on him. I know he will never change, he is not suddenly going to become faithful and loving towards me and I know he has this sexual addiction as well as needing variety and novelty none of which a single woman can supply. Its just a case of whether I want to go on in this game or not...I guess the answer is that I do because when I do see him it just feels so worth it.

Friday Jayne and I went to the railway knowing that they would all be there. I was dreading it, worrying about how I would feel seeing him and worrying that Robo would put pressure on me to do more than I want to with him.
At first it was a bit boring and slow but soon we got talking to a really interesting man who just knew all the history of Harlow. He was amazing to listen to. We knew that Mr v and his group had come in and surprise surprise so had barage balloon with her mates, it all seemed a bit of a coincidence that they all arrived together!

Anyway the night went on and eventually Jayne and I had to walk past them to go to the loo...just as Jayne past he stepped in front of me and said 'I think you know me, yes you do don't you? I said he was mistaken and once Jayne had passed by he asked me where I had been all evening and then he suddenly said ' that hole between your legs I am gonna lick you out and fuck you real hard' I just sort of swooned and then bit his chin out of excitement. Don't get excited he said but it was too late I was now turned on.

All night he kept staring over at me and giving me the come on and rubbing himself up against me while I was talking to Robo...it was very exciting and I loved every minute.

Since then a couple of texts asking how I felt seeing him and I know he enjoyed the game but no attempts to meet up and now I am fed up. I know just know he is seeing someone else. but there you go.

I picked Mum up on Friday and she has been staying at Karen's. I hope she has been enjoying it but worry a bit that she might be bored. I took them out on Suday and cooked dinner and tonight we are going to Chris's who will cook for us. I am supposed to be working all week so can't really spend time taking them out and about and I will be driving her back over the weekend.

Anyway better go and do some more work, this is just work avoidance.