Fire in the street.

Big excitement in our street last night with the woman over the road's tumble drier catching on fire. I came out of the bathroom to see the reflection of flashing blue lights on the walls and when I went to look there was two fire engines, loads of fireman and half the street on the girls lawn watching smoke billow out of her house although later I found out it was her shed not her house. Sad thing I was but I videoed it and sent it to Jayne as I know she likes chasing Fire engines.

Rob found out that his company had lost a contract today and he might be made redundant. Shame as he likes this job but it got me thinking is he someone who has things happen to him or is he the kind of person who as Mr V says makes things happen for him? I think its the former. Just recently he has had his car smashed into, lost his cash card so he can't get to his money and losing it was a stupid easily rectified mistake, moving home to another room with a mate rather than making a decision to get his own place and the new place he won't even have to do his own shopping as they'll include his stuff with theirs! Now losing his job. It all sounds a bit childish to me and not the sort of person I need. I need someone who can look after themselvs as well as me occasionally. I do not need someone who reels from crisis to crisis or wanders aimlessly around.

On the other hand he is not my responsiblity and I am not his so what if he ambles along, maybe he just needs someone to give him a bit of direction or maybe he has not had any reason to want his own place or do his own thing till now?

Still unsure if this is going anywhere and its strange because normally at this early stage of a relationship it would feel all exciting with lots of challenges and possibilities whereas now it feels a bit strange to be talking such long term concerns...if he were married it would just be about fun but instead it feels like life time commitments are about to be made. Weird scary feelings abound.

As for Mr V I sort of feel that it is over now and not in a bad way. I probably will see him one day and we will have sex but it won't be like the previous year with sex 3 times a week or even regularly, it will be like old friends meeting and actually I am fine with this.