Mothering Sunday continued.

At 5.55 I got a text from Mr V saying that he was okay babes and how were things my end? I never really expected or rather I would have been totally surprised if he had started pouring his heart out and telling me that things were horrible for him...but I think he appreciated the sentiments. I told him I was glad things were okay and that I would go back to calling him imoral and wind him up again. He then said to think of my lips around his shaft...so all is normal then huh!

Chris came round and we all had dinner together which should have been lovely as both boys made an effort but Richard sits there elbows on the table, eating before anyone sits down and saying stupid things apparently just to disagree and be irriatating which he suceeeds at brilliantly. We must end this horrible marriage and soon.

It also makes me fearful of making another mistake, of settling and hoping that love will follow which I now know it doesn't and however nice Rob is I must not make the same mistake again.

Phil bought me Borat the movie and we watched that with a nice rose that he had bought, got a couple of texts from Rob and could not answer easily cos watching the film...so went to bed without replying really.

Today Richard spent 40 minutes in bathroom so I could not wash my hair before setting off for Colchester and actually just having him in the building is irritating me to bits.

Rob has recently text asking me how I am and I am so tempted to phone him later and call the whole thing off...except I stop myself and ask what harm am I doing? He is not really makign any demands on me but I don't know if he is the right person for me...so why can't we just have a nice time together enjoying the company? Oh god I don't know what to do for the best. I don't want to string him along and I don't think I can get into a serious relationship with him so is it fair to carry on?

Robo text and said he was a bit bored and could I phone so I text him back and said he could phone me, cheeky git...but he did and we had a good old chat. I do like him...he is very easy to talk to.

God all these men and they each think they are the only one, thing is there is only one I want to really be with and he is the biggest villian of them all.