Rob the accident prone.

Not too much to report today really. Busy day colouring hair, collecting shopping and doing some work. Drove home talking and arranging holiday with Mum on the phone. Cooked dinner and sat and ate it with Phil while watching tv and now just surfing the net etc. Going to watch The Apprentice soon.....all feels slightly deflated and yet at the same time relieved because I thought I had a date arranged with Rob tonight.

He text today asking how I was and when I replied said that he had dropped a pallet onto a colleague's car bonnet causing it to need replacing. God another mistake. So far since I have known him he has told me about his break up of his parents marriage, how he broke his leg on holiday, got serious burns through suntanning without protection in Australia, had his car bashed into, had a serious industrial accident, lost his cash card while drunk and now in danger of losing his job.

Is this a person who lets life happen to him, or is he incredibly unlucky or what? Either way I do not need to get involved and make him my responsiblity so its for the best if we are just friends and I had a similar discussion online with Fuzzy only today...and yet and yet...I sometimes ponder at the possibilities because I want someone to share my life. I want to go for walks, share weekends with someone and do all the nice intimate things you do with someone who loves and cares for you...but I have made a similar mistake before and am still living with that mistake today. I do not need to escape one mistake only to jump into another mistake.

Am feeling slightly pissed off that he didn't let me know that he wanted to watch the football instead of seeing me afterall...it feels a bit rude. On the other hand I need to let him get on with his life.

While I am typing this I am on line on Yahoo and so is Mr V...however England is playing and I am telling myself that he probably is not even watching this screen or could be talking to his new girl friend I guess. Either way I don't even feel particularly bothered about this either.

In fact I am really quite anti men at the moment and might forgo going out on Friday for a Saturday of no hangovers and the ability to plant my garden seeds on Saturday...sad or what? lol