Purpose in life?

Spent yesterday slobbing around till I met up with Jayne and we went up the town for coffee and post Friday night review. We both agreed the Railway had been pretty boring, or perhaps its us now and maybe we're outgrowing that kind of thing now. I think Lorraine would be pleased if we were. Trouble is if we don't go to the Railway where else is there or what is there for us to do?

I am getting to the stage where I am wondering what I am doing with my life? Sometimes it feels as if I am wasting time till I die!! Whats the point in that? Although its not to say I am depressed just a little pensive and bored I guess. My children are grown up and indepedent, I don't have a good relationship with husband, I don't want to go back to studying again although that might be the answer with all this extra time on my hands now. I also know that flirting and whathaveyou with different men, might stave off boredom in the shortterm but does nothing spiritually or is not even satisfying for the medium let alone long term. So where is my purpose in life now.

Look today its now 12.30 and you could say I've enjoyed a nice chilled weekend of long layins, watching telly, Chris came round last night which was nice for us but probably boring for him and they have all gone off to watch Spurs in some hospitality box today which sounds good for them, but here I am still in my pajama's wondering what to do with myself?

Should I bake another cake that only I eat?
I can't do the garden because its raining too much.
I'm seeing Jayne and Lorraine tonight.
I've already told Mr V I am free and got no response probably cos he is busy with his own life and family.
So what to do? Watch more telly? Waste a little more time till time for bed or death?
I could paint the bathroom but can't be bothered.

I have spent some time getting info on San Sebastian where Jayne and I are going in June, it looks wonderful and we will have to try the pintxos which will be a bit much for Jayne who is even more conservative than me in her taste.

Oh well life is life and its up to me to make the most of it. I just need a new purpose. I suppose this happens to lots of people as their children grow up suddenly all the time you wanted you now have its just that you have sort of forgotten how to use it now.


Mood: Pensive and considered.

Health: Cold nearly gone although nasty cough in the morning like some 50 a day person!

Food yesterday: Shredded wheat,
2 crossiants with loads of butter
Crisps and latte
Snacks and dips
yogurt
2 glasses of white wine

News: Browns campaign against who? Blair going. Toddler still missing fears that she has been abducted by international peodophile group, she was a much wanted IVF baby as well and her mother now looks like she has not eaten since the child was taken.