Fossil

...is what Jayne called me when I said I was not going out on Friday. I'd been out on Wednesday and Thursday nights and I was not enthralled by the idea of a night of standing around a night club unable to hear people and regretting the waste of money it would have cost me to be there. I didn't care what she called me but enjoyed staying in and was in bed by 9.37!!

This job is stretching my little brain to capacity plus my wavering self esteem. I don't like being new. I don't like not knowing what I am doing and I don't like not having the answers to things. People keep saying give it time but I am impatient and feel like I am being too slow.
Today all I have done is drive to Clacton and back (okay in horrible driving wind and rain conditions) but I am knackered and had to finish around 4 simply because I knew I was too tired to concentrate. Yet I was in bed by 9.30 last night! At this rate I'll be going to bed straight after tea!
Maria who started 2 weeks before me has enrolled on the Early Years Professional status course doing the fast track one as well! I don't think I could take anything else on. Is it age or am I telling myself unhelpfull things?

I was also busy over the weekend with house things. I have tackled Richard's wardrobe and got rid of loads of stuff he never wears or looks at. All his running teeshirts are in suitcases in the loft and I took a huge bag to the reclycling. For example when I got to thirty shirts I gave up counting. Lots of clothes still had price tags on all unworn! Talk about re creating his parents home!!

Also attacked the space between his bed and the wall and on top of the wardrobes and cleared out loads of junk. Found leaflets giving advice on finance 1999! A draw full of receipts all dated 2003!. Its depressing and good at the same time. I love creating the extra space and the home and bedroom feel much better for the de cluttering. Swapping rooms with Phil would not seem so daunting now or possibly even moving home! Now there is something to think about.

Health - good although very tired.
Money - good although I have spent too much. Not sure how much was pay rise or expenses but there was a lot in bank account on Saturday but not had pay slip to cheque. Have ordered new corner piece for a thousand pounds!!
Mood - good although tired.

News - Gordon Banks makes first speech to conference as PM no mention of possible election.
Weather - horrible driving wind and rain this morning but now sunny and windy.