Had such a brilliant day in work yesterday. The partners workshop that I had planned went really well. I do privately take the glory for this as it was my ideas and I planned the morning and I was the one who stood at the front and welcomed everyone. I did stand back at one point as it was in danger of becomming the GH show and although I would have loved to have carried on its not my CC but the lead bodies and its them who have to take ownership for it. Anyway we had huge sign up and overall a good feeling of success was felt generally. We are now zooming ahead to plan for the parents open day.
Trouble with getting excited about work is that I find it hard to switch off and relax and I woke in the night unable to get the day off my mind...so am feeling tired today. I quite like this feeling of excitement in work although its still a bit scary.
PH seems to have gone on some kind of a break and I sort of get a sense he has gone to sort himself out. To have some thinking time for himself. He has had a hard time re the waterways, things at home are not good and I think he does have some feelings for me...or at least that is how it feels with messages like wanting to talk to me, hoping to see me etc etc. I really don't know how I feel. I do like him and I know I would miss his wise counsel and feelings of being cared for but I don't know if it is enought althought then when I look around my extremely messy house with R barely speaking and now refusing to eat my meals and I wonder why do I hesitate? Why not jump at the chance of being with someone who will care for you and look after you? Someone who would love you and make you feel so special. Jayne is so preoccupied with her own children and maybe he is the man I have been waiting for?
Have ordered my christmas cards through unicef today so they will be infused with a smug sense of do gooding.
News - government funding scandal
Weather - sunny today and mild
Mood - excited and tired
Health good but have been surrounded and I do mean surrounded by ill people all week.
Money - daren't look which is not good at all.
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