I know my stress level is high because I have a horribly itchy rash inside my elbow and behind my knee. I think this is some kind of eczeama caused by stress. My sleep is disturbed and I wake last like night about 2ish and then can't get back to sleep till about 5ish and then wake exhausted when the alarm rings at 6! I also have a permanent headache which is caused by tension and I keep doing stupid things like breaking glasses or tonight remembering not to rub my eyes when cutting chillies and then rubbing just the corner and thinking oh well its only the corner and then acerbating it by rubbing the rest of my eye. Hence really sore burning eyes which only felt better by me literally holding my eye under the cold tap in the bathroom!!

I must get this all in persepective but there seems so much to think about at the moment. What to do about Peter, things to do in work, will the new sofa's fit through the door plus being aware that its almost a year since my Dad died.

With hindsight I can say I have enjoyed work today and actually achieved a lot such as Jane Y agreeing to my plans for the workshop. It will be interesting to see or hear her claim the credit for this if it all goes well and I hope she claims the same if it doesn't go so well as well.
I also met with Linda and she has also agreed to meet the nursery managers. Just got to get the date finalised for the first meeting. Also had a useful discussion with Andy and Jill tonight and a good chat with Jane and Slyvia so was all good fun really.

Poor Jaynee is so stressed and has not eaten since last Thursday. She is obviously worried about Justine and spends all available time at the hospital and is now getting stressed and cross with Paul who is obviously not doing enough so she is doing even more. It will never end.

Got a text from Chris and Fiona who told me the name of their hotel in Goa. It is apparently lovely and they are having a wonderful time.

I've got Peter on my mind as well. He has now invited me to day out in Cambridge at some college in November which sounds lovely. Looking at archives and listening to an interesting speaker having a nice lunch. What could be nicer and in such good company as well. My concern is this new move to kissing me and it just feels different. I am worried I cannot respond in the way he would want me to and I don't want to hurt or lead him on and I don't want to lose him as a friend but am not sure I can really see him as anything else. I suppose there is little I can do at the moment so its really no point in worrying. Perhaps its important not to be railroaded into doing anything I am not comfortable with and I need to assert myself next time. I think I will be more ready next time as last week I was unprepared. I don't want to make another mistake in my life like I did with Richard.

I've got to find a way to de stress myself and I am seriously thinking of some kind of exercise which I know would help.

Health - good ish but feel headachy

Mood - highly stressed

News- Cameron wants increased penalties for rape- horrific murder of English student in Italy

Money- not very good, dipping into overdraft

Weather autumnal and cold tonight for the first time my car told me to be ice alert!! Winter is here.