Oooh ooh do the funky gibbon....I feel busy and stretched and excited and nervous and anxious and hopeful. Just got to keep the momentum going otherwise I might just plunge off the cliff. There is just so much to do and get involved with in this job.
Met with Sue R today who is very disillusioned by the way she has been treated by Essex which is a shame as she seems to know her area and her job very well. I like her even though I suspect I'm not supposed to. Poor Denise looked all grey and tired today and she didn't stop for lunch and said she was fed up and had too much to do. Alex who only started two weeks ago didn't quite have the same air of confidence and bounce about her today. See we all get those wobbly moments not just me although everyone else seems much better than me. I learnt today that feeling like that is normal and is actually called the 'imposter feeling' that we shouldn't be there.
...and where is PH? I've waited for him to come back from his trip which is supposed to be today and where is he? Gone, not a word. I want him to come back and declare himself. I want to start a new chapter of my life with him, I want him to care for me and look after me. I am totally selfish and I am looking forward to revealing my vulunerability to this very lovely caring man...but I can't if he don't come back.
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