I wish he would hurry back now from his self emposed exhile or a 'break'! I've had time to think and I do miss him and I do think I could think romantically about him and want to get this started now. Sometimes I feel my life is stagnating and I am sitting in a mess when I could be doing stuff. Still he gets back tomorrow and hopefully my earlier reluctance has not put him off. I feel a bit like a victorian maiden waiting for her suitor to declare himself. He almost has and I have almost discouraged him in the past. Maybe its too late now and he's gone away with someone else or wants to tell me of his love for someone else. We will see.
My work is challenging and interesting at the moment and I am trying to get my head round all the statistics needed for this job. I'm spending Sunday mornings looking up SOA's and whats happening locally. Who is in work, what ethnic origin etc etc. Interesting and daunting at the same time.
Had an honest conversation with Ja yesterday. She admitted her motives for staying at the flat are not all for Ju but because she wants to avoid going home to Mar. We also talked about her nurturing that young fledgling family and she said that Jus is already texting other men. I seriously don't hold much hope. Apparently Jus and Pa tried for 3 months to get pregnant. Disgusting. Never worked and deliberately with no morals decided to have a baby with no source of income at all. She should be ashamed and it makes me cross.
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