Christmas Day and Boxing Day went well. I spent ages cooking food for recipes but actually enjoyed the preparing of the food but then ate and drank too much and as a consequence have been feeling bloated, tired and generally run down for the last two days.
My skin looks yellow and sallow, I have a huge spot thing just below my nose which I just cannot get rid of and is now worrying me that its something more frightening than just a mere spot. I feel fat and tired and generally depressed. This is not just down to too much eating and pre Christmas entertaining but some kind of winter malaise. Although I have rested and slept so well I feel incredibly tired and letharic. Jayne wants us to go to the Railway on NYE but I have never felt so unglamorus or unattractive as I do now and can't really see me feeling bubbly and bright this time tomorrow.
I tried to get the endorphins working yesterday by making myself go out for a brisk walk and it did help get things moving down below. Everything was sluggish and it felt as if my stomach and bowels were just a fermenting bubbling mess that was sort of stuck and its amazing what a brisk 17 minute walk can do. Just feeling the sun and the wind on my face made me feel so much better.
Got to shake myself out of this horrible lethargy and will be walking or more like sauntering later with Jayne in between her visiting Mothercare and doing things with her girls. I am just as needy as they are and am probably jealous of all the attention she gives them whilst at the same time feeling that its all a bit much still and she really ought to let them get on with their lives independent from her now.
Chris and Fi went to football yesterday and Spurs won 6 4 and it sounded like they had a brilliant day.
A bit worried about Karen as she tried to phone on Boxing day just as we were sitting down for dinner and I said I would call her back unfortunately she is either not answering her phone or its broken or she is sulking or something. Oh well
Money= spent too much pre Christmas and now in sales so not good
Health = feeling as above tired, run down, spotty and a bit depressed and anxious
News - family rottewieler kills baby. Benazia Bhutto assignated!
Weather = grey and overcast and cold typical December weather no wonder I am depressed I probably have SAD
Goals today
Must not eat fatty things
Am not drinking alcohol till March 1st or maybe even for the whole year.
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