Stressful times at work

My diet seems to be working well. By the end of last week I could feel clothes getting bigger or really I was getting smaller. I have trained myself to be okay on a half a grape fruit for breakfast and a banana for lunch. I find I really look forward to my proper dinner in the evening and don't actually want lots of pudding and sweet stuff to follow. The other thing is that the food tastes really nice. I also sleep better for not drinking and not stuffing myself too much. I really noticed this last point at the weekend when I had a break and did eat more and drank wine.

Now in week two and yesterday was problematical because I went out for lunch but I didn't have anything in the evening except an apple so hopefully it evened itself out.

My hibernation continues with me still staying in and being happy doing housework and making soups. I talked to Lisa on Saturday and she said Mum is the same and doesn't want anyone coming down....yippeee. I told Chris and Fiona when they came round on Saturday although I think Chris thinks I planned it.

I also put Jayne off on Saturday night. I had been busy doing a massive clean all day and then when Chris and Fiona came round it put me all behind although I am glad they came and want to encourage these drop ins and make them less formal and more about just joining in with us and pottering around.

I had also been putting off Mr V who was getting more demanding and suggesting hotel rooms and trips to London etc. I was almost at the point of saying actually I don't want to do this anymore when I agreed to meet him quickly at the industrial estate. I was anxious in case he suddenly saw what I had been seeing which was an old, fat spottywoman but he was great and said and did all the right things.
After I pulled him close and told him I was very fond of him and kissed him to which he smiled and held me and said 'ditto'. Doesn't sound much but its the nearest we have come of saying we really like the other person in more than a sexual way and it felt good.

In fact I felt so good I floated around all day replaying bits of our meeting. That man has done my self esteeem so much good he deserves a medal.

Work is rather stressful at the moment and I never feel I get completely on top of things. I seem to be relpying to emails at the last minute and following a reminder from Diane. This is not good and I will have to change this obvioiusly prioritising those from management. I got myself into a tizzy last night thinking I will be sacked for not doing things properly and then trying to reassure myself. I do find this job so stressful and want so much to do well in this. The others seem to find it all so easy and sail through things without a flinch whereas I seem to need talking through every last little thing I feel so dense. Then I worry that this job is beyond me and yet I want so much to aim higher yet. The only thing is to keep on, prioritise work and just work harder than I have ever worked in my life before. I hope I can look back on this one day and smile.

Weather - very wet with flood warnings in the country and severe weather warnings with strong winds to come

Health = good although had a stomach ache this morning but easing now so its not Norovirus

Money - too scared and cowardly to look

News= Peter Hain forgetting to announce 100k went into his election fund!