No men and then like busses several all at once.

Well an interesting start to the new year. After a couple of years of nothing, zilch, no sex and no interesting people to even lust after I now have several bubbling away.

There is Mr Tumnus my little naughty man who is luring me into the land of Naughty Narnia with promises of passion and excitement. He is slightly scary though with his obvious experience and repetoire of fantasies and sexual games. He is in danger of making me feel so niaive and inexperienced as to be boring. Funny though my rather crude, explicit although honest email got him on the phone to me quicker than you could say rendevouz.

Mr Velvet lips with whom it felt like I was being kissed by velvet ...now he does not seem so intelligent as Mr Tumnus but his body and looks were fantastic and like I said his kissing was out of the world. He texts everyday and several times and says lovely things about me and wants to meet up but has yet to set a proper date. Unless he gets a move on I'm in danger of getting bored with him ...just have to keep in my mind the feel of his lips on mine and his gorgeous body.

Its strange because not only is there those two but a rave from the grave popped up today with an unexpected email wishing me happy new year and then asking afterme when I returned the compliment.

Its taken me two years to get over him and even now I still think of him and how he manipulated and mistreated me so do not want to get involved and yet I am curious about him. How has life treated him, is he happy etc etc? The scary scary thing about him is even though I feel in control and know he is dangerous to my own mental health and I should run a mile I also know that if I let him phone me his voice will just win me over once again.
Anyway he hasn't replied to my last email so hopefuly he's got bored and wondered off to torment some other poor girl. In fact I suspect he contacted me as a result of a row with someone else and he is even as I speak manipulating her into apologising for something she has not done and the reason he contacted me was because he was bored or lonely or feeling sorry for himself.

Another ex contacted me the week before Christmas and left his number to phone but that sounded just like an old friend wanting to catch up and in deed he has talked about his partner etc. I did phone today and spoke to her and she sounded nice and said he was teaching so maybe he has turned his life around which is good and I wish him all the luck in the world cos he was not a bad bloke.

So Friday night tomorrow and who knows what it will bring....wish I could bottle the stuff that seems to be making me appear sexy and desirable and spray it on when needed.