Lovely hot and sunny September

Supported Peter during the mediation meeting where we seemed to have a real break through. She got the acknowledgement of the hurt and fear she felt and continues to feel and he also had the opportunity to talk about old hurts etc. You can feel the dynamics change in the room when something has been restored. I would love someone to really analyse this for me.

Whizzed back to Braintree and had a sad afternoon with Karen all ready to leave although the picnic was nice. Such a lovely hot sunny day you would think it was June not September and we all sat outside, wasn't bothered by wasps either which was good.

Came home cooked tea and watched telly. About half eight I sent him a text saying it was up to him as I still had a sore throat and that I would not be offended. He replied asking what was the latest I could get out so I said about 9 and as it turned out he could not get out before 10 the whole thing sort of fizzled out for me. I had my pajama's on and was watching extras quite happily to be honest. He wanted it more than me and text me a couple more times after.

I've been toying with the idea of getting him round here and I've suggested he comes round today after about 1ish. I thought I could unlock the gate and the back door and lock the front door. That way if someone comes home unexpectedly he can run out the back while I stall them at the front. Might be a bit risky but sometimes taking risks are good.

Off to Saffron Walden today and tonight out with Lorraine and Jayne. I've offered to drive but already I'm regretting that as I know I'll get bored and tired and want to come home and they both know I will as well, oh well another watch this space I guess.