Feeling a bit bleurgh

Not really sure why?! It might be because I'm worried and sad about my Dad but whatever all day yesterday I had the feeling of bleurghness...sort of fed up and very tired. Once again I struggled to stay awake till even 10 let alone past 10. I wonder if I need to do more exercise I hate this sluggish feeling and afterall Jayne and I were doing 2 hour walks a night during the summer.

Went into the office yesterday and am a bit worried about the training stuff catching up with me. I have not submitted the registration forms and I know there is a whole load missing. I need to spend time really sorting that out but don't want to spend time in the office. On the positive side I did get other work done and also found out that Friday's training is cancelled so thats good.

Met Jayne for coffee. She's had good news re her contract and had a good night out with little Scot who she has finally realised is much too young and is just a friend now so thats good. Justine came in and Jayne could barely speak to her which of course Justine noticed. Jayne just needs to tell her the reason which is she needs to stop acting like a child and get herself a job and start growing up. grrr

I sent Robo a happy birthday text and later asked if he had a good day. He replied to the first but not the second. As for Mr V... I really can't be bothered and didn't bother texting him at all and surprise surprise he never text me either. I really think he is back with her and to be honest I ask myself do I really want to be part of all this? Its never going anywhere and I'll always be bloody third...just carry on with sex then nothing and then sex? Sometimes you just can't be bothered no matter how good the sex was. It sort of helps knowing that we tend to spend more time thinking about people we are not in contact with so to expect a period of thinking about him till I get him out of my system which at the moment does not feel that difficult.

Right off to Colchester for more mediation, followed by a Harlow visit and possible hair cut...that might make me feel better it often does, strange how getting your hair cut can lift your spirits.